If it pleases You.

Today mom was talking about what kind of a person I am. And how I may never get the ideal simplicity of life that I desire.

She mentioned how I can't just be a simple girl leading a simple life.

And I cringed at that comment, because I know, what I really want is really just to lead a simple life. And mom totally burst my bubble. Thanks mom.

She said how I've always been on the frontline, how I've always been a leader, my character that's seemingly unbeatable.

But I was fearful. Because that's not what I want. So I made my stand and firmly told mom that I just want to lead a simple life. But mom said no, because it's in my blood, I can never run away. And then I cried out to God (in a dramatic and exasperated way of course), and asked why did He created me this way. And mom said, if you don't turn out the way God created you to be, you are turning away from God. And inside me, I was just like. WOAHHHHH.

And as I left the house for prayer meeting, I was giving all these a serious thought. And I've decided.

If whatever that I am inside is what God wants me to be, then I know that whatever I am must be for His kingdom's purposes.

So if it pleases You Lord, I am willing to do anything.