Won't be meeting up with laopos tomorrow.
suddenly felt so dissapointed and sad.
or should i say...
i always feel this way when i'm at home.
i always feel so stressed,
angry, sad, depressed. and all those craps.
when i'm at home...
what is home? what is home?
i think i shouldn't go home to early.
my horoscope says,
or where ever i read this from.
it says, the further away i am from home.
the more successful i will get.
is it true? whenever i'm away from home.
i seldom feel so bad.
what is going on?
nobody understands anyway...
hopefully one day,
i'll find someone who understands me.

am i asking for too much?
but what can i do?
i'm human.
humans are never perfect.
they are greedy and selfish.
i'm greedy and selfish.

sighsighsigh.
what's this?
what's going on with my life?
what the hell luhhs.

but good think that,
i've a positive disposition.
if not, i would have gone to jump off a building.
or drown myself.
or use a knife to stab myself.
luckily i've a positive disposition.
if not, i would've done all this
stupid, foolish, idiotic, nonsensical things.
but how long can i stay positive?
i may break down anytime.
i'm a human.
huamns break down when they can't take it.

a few weeks ago,
two people came from the church.
and they told me about the world.
saying that,
there is no more love in this world.
and all that.
and ms yuen says,
she wants to go to heaven quickly,
because the world is becoming from bad to worse.

what's happening?
what's happening to this world?
what's happening?

i am not the jasmin
i used to be anymore.
and i shall never be.
i am not...
i am jasmin.
i am.....