There's beauty in the ugliness of love.

I miss the days when my faith was childlike and my trust in God was so strong. 

I miss the days when I was not only touch by the love of our Lord Jesus, but the conviction puts my hands into action.

I miss the days when all I desired was to live my life for this high being who'd come down to earth, to experience life as a man, to experience what it is like being tempted by the devil, to experience pain, spiritually, emotionally and physically.

I miss that period when I experienced true love from a God who is willing to sacrifice His life for the world.

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Jesus Christ loves us so much. To the extent of dying for the people who mocked Him, insulted Him, tortured Him; dying for the people who spat at Him, whipped Him, nailed Him to the cross. And all Jesus Christ could say to the Father was, "Forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing."

Every time I'm reminded of His death on the cross for me, I would always feel very very very sad for the sufferings He had to go through for me. 

Imagine a crown of thorns digging deep into your skull, whips with pricks on it being slashed onto your skin, a long nail being pierced into your palms and feet.

Yet, at the same time, I SHOUT UNTO MY LORD AND SAVIOUR! And thank Him for all the sufferings He had to go through!The physical torture on the cross, the emotional lashings from the people whom he loves in this world and the spiritual separation He had to go through with the Father! For if it wasn't God's plan for all these to happen, I wouldn't be who I am today!

And now, as I have received Him into my life.

 I am empowered to live a life like Him. 

My hope is always in Him. 

My identity is secure in Him.

And in times of troubles, I cry out to this faithful lover of my soul who would deliver me from all my troubles!

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And the Lord knows what I'm going through now.

I will not miss those days no more, for I desire to remain like those days, 

when I first met Jesus, and fell so deeply in love with Him.

I want to fall so deeply in love with Jesus Christ.

This is the One true; sacrificial; everlasting love that shines beautifully in the ugliness of a love, explained by this world, that conveys a message of misconception of what true love is.