Running in Circles

This is a follow up post from:
http://forever-i-am-changed.blogspot.sg/2014/11/mo-min-her-bargain-with-god.html

I was just running away from Him. And how foolish was I.

THE LITTLE GIRL WHO TOLD THE STORY OF JONAH

I was looking through my Facebook feed and stumbled across a video of a little girl. Maybe 7 years old. She told the whole story of Jonah and the Big Fish. And at that moment, I just thought to myself, what a sweet young girl. A very good storyteller. She told the story in such an engaging manner.

 But wasn’t that message for me? Who can run away from God?

WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE FINAL DECISION

One Saturday, I made my decision to stay on in Yakult. Accumulate my savings and decide again next year. After all, I have a tuition grant bond to serve, and my passport would only be ready next year. Let’s not think about missions for now. So, that afternoon, I prayed a brief prayer saying, “God, I have decided to stay on in Yakult. But if You think otherwise, please give me a sign.” And soon enough, I forgot about that prayer, just remembering my decision.

That evening, R-AGE had a movie screening, the movie title was, “Miral”. It was about the unrest in the Middle East. Actually, I couldn’t really understand half the movie, because we couldn’t put up the English subtitles. But throughout the movie, something tugged my heartstrings. 

Look at all the suffering people out there, in the world. And here I am, at the comforts of what I call, my home. With His direct ministry on earth, Jesus walked among those who suffered, those who were lost, those who were outcasts. And here I am, not suffering one bit for the Gospel’s sake.

After the movie, we were handed a magazine. I received that magazine for the first time. I just chucked it into my bag without looking at it. When I boarded the bus to go home, I was already very emotionally affected. I was distressed. I was sorrowed. Then, I took out the magazine from my bag and turned to the back cover page. And there was that very common verse; I’ve seen it so many times already. But I was more affected by it then.

Luke 10:2

And he said to them, “The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few; therefore pray earnestly to the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest.”

Following that, there was a question, “Is God calling you into His service to work cross-culturally?”

Like… How I know ah?! 

And I started tearing, trying to contain my tears. I most definitely didn’t want to make a rash decision based on my own emotions. But later that night, I remembered, didn’t I say a prayer in the afternoon, that if God thinks otherwise, He give me a sign? Is this the sign?

After reading the back cover page, I flipped to the cover page, and the magazine was actually titled, “Go.” 

Wow, why did it only stand out to me now?