Today i had a fun time!
and also 1/4 angry day.
because of who?!?
nvm. shall elaborate later on.

didn't feel well this morning.
lols. then quite moody la.
then during recess,
played badminton.
HE wanted to borrow racket from me.
but i said, no..
why should i...

he always talk to me so nicely when he needs something from me.
and he'll treat me like a pile of shit when he doesnt.

i've gotten enough of this ok!
everytime, i will try to be more friendly towards him.
but he just ignores me.
why should i waste my time on him?
it's not worth it.
i don't know,
seriously don't know. why...
why has he been giving me the cold shoulder...
ever since... ever since...
he quarreled with nicholas?
i don't know!
he has changed so much! so much!
he's no longer the lihao i knew.
the him which was so caring. so kind...
i'm not saying he's not kind.
i can tell he's still a kind boy until now.
but i'm an exception.
he just simply treat me like invisible.
i'm serious.
he treats me like i'm invisible!
and i can't take it anymore.

i shall continue on what happened.
so... it's like. he finally got hold of a racket.
and i was teamed with gabriel.
while he was alone.
and HE. purposely did not pass the shuttlecock to me.
he deliberately did so.
it's damn freaking obvious ok...
i just stood there like an idiot.
he always say, " you remember..."
when i don't let him have things his way.

HE'S THE ONE WHO SHOULD REMEMBER!
THIS IS PSYCHOLOGY ABUSE!
HE ABUSES ME!
HE'S AND ABUSER!
HE ABUSE MY FEELINGS!
I HATE HIM!
I SERIOUSLY HATE HIM.

and during english lesson,
the class was practically crapping.
mr lee was doing some things on the computer.
then some people was saying choochoo was crying =.=
then i played along,
and said like... don't cry..
i'll love you and dote on you alot.
then ying chong they all were like laughing
over my joke.
and HE just, "tsk."
and i said, wad!
then he say i very noisy.
i noisy or not,
you have a problem?!?
in fact, the whole class was noisy!
and you weren't studying...
i can tell that you were flirting with girls!
or whatever! you were doing.
i don't care!
so what? are you very unhappy with what i'm blogging about?!?
why don't you sue me!
you have such rich parents!
use their money to sue me!

and just now.
i was passing my black file to the sci rep.
coz i did finish the ws.
then he turned and ask me.
if he could borrow my work and copy.
i just took a glance at him,
and looked out of the window.
i didn't want to talk to him!
j-erk!
and this happened right after recess!
when he deliberately not pass me the shuttlecock.

hey peeps.
i'm sorry i ignored u all.
when i was scribbling on my blackbook.
coz i was damn frustrated. angry. and mostly.
heartbroken.
HE was such a good friend to me in the past.
i'm not angry because he scolded.
i'm angry because of how he treated me like...
2 years?? like since p6...?
i almost cried while i was scribbling on my blackbook.
but i held back my tears.
why should i cry over him?
there's no way i'm gonna do that.
if he wants things to remain it this way...
let him be...
if he's happy...
let him be...

i hate him not because of small petty issues.
but because i once cared for him.
and i once look upon him as my bestfriend!
now he's treating me like that...
of course, i would be heartbroken and angry.

因为有爱才有恨

this post is omgbasically all about him