today, school as usual.
i'm quite active in PE lessons nowadays. hahas..
yea... had math retest and physics test.
went straight to sc room after school.
for a short meeting. ya... then after that meeting,
stayed back. for dance rehearsal.
bahh... didn't rehearse anyway. lols.
huimin and i did cartwheels together.
i accidentally kicked her ass! LOLS.
sorry darlinggg! hahas! really soo sorry. lols.
then adela and i went to grab a bite.
then when we went back to the sc room.
jerrick was there. and we had a chat.
jerrick said i look like a piglet. =.= like ya.. wth. lols.
laughed our hearts out in the sc room :)
everytime i step into the sc room
i would feel soo happy :) i love the student council.
they chase my troubles and sadness away.
mahal and i are in the same boat D':
mahal don't worry, he did that for your own good :
you still have us :) we have each other :)
we'll be together no matter what :)
i know exactly how you're feeling now,
because i'm also experiencing what you're feeling now.
but no worries D: we still have other things which we can be happy about.
mahal kita!

so many things happened recently,
quite stressed up. but it doesn't matter.
everyone undergoes stress, if there is no stress in your life.
then go get a life man! lols... ... ... ya. crapping again.
i'm such a crap. i'm a lame idiot stupid crapper. D:
no wonder nobody wants me...

confusedconfusedconfused.
just when i wanted to give up,
she said those words which tempted me.
words which made me think about him again.
this morning, when i woke up.
i felt a sense of emptiness in me.
how long would this emptiness last?
it's like i've lost something really important.
and there's no way i can ever get it back.
it just hurts. but i have to face it.
although it's hurtful to let go of this relationship.
but no matter how hard it is, i still have to.
why? why must this happen?
can anyone tell me? tell me what's going on?
i musn't be affected by what others say...
it's my problem. it's my choice.
no one can help me except myself.
i shall make my own decision without having any regrets.
no point feeling sad over it. everyone advised. thanks guys :

specially thanks to choochoo.
who tried to cheer me up this morning.
quite touched. lols! never thought you would do that.
heyhey... i specially thank you worr.
remember to leave a tag hor. hahas.

sorry, deying, just now when you tell me about your troubles.
i have totally nothing to say and nothing to advise about.
sorry, i hope you understand ):
i don't even know what to do about myself now,
so i do not have the rights to tell you what to do.

i just hope that, i would be back to my normal self
someday.
well, at least i will...

[[单纯并不是幸福,反而是痛苦]]