I still feel uncomfortable and uneasy.
When I look at her messages?
When I look at her pictures?
All, just by coincidence, I would still feel uneasy.
Although jiejie told me not to be bothered by it,
but i can't help myself to think about it.
It's like, already in me, like...
it has already left a scar in my heart?

I thought I would feel better after that night,
but, it's just for the time being,
that uneasy feeling is coming back to me.
That sense of insecurity ): it's like haunting me

Like I said, it's problems after problems.
I've always been an indecisive person,
when it comes to disspointing some people.
But, i somehow feel, they don't really welcome me?
I don't know, I just don't feel the spirit?
Or is it because i have been missing in action for so long?
Maybe it's just my fault ):

I thought I've decided, but I somehow...
Somehow feel it's wrong. so wrong?
As in, if i make that decision, i just feel...
like... it's not like that?
grrr... what am i talking about? =.=
I don't know what to do?
Why are there so many choices we have to make?
Maybe that's just life... ):

Maybe... counselling is the best for me?
But... where is the time? lols... zzz...

[[Everyone is born with challenges in their life, just don't give up and you'll never fail]]