I've decided.

I'm still a positive thinker!

There are some things I can just leave a side and don't give a damn.
But i somehow feel irresponsible and bad?
But, it's not my problem anyway.
It's the fued between them.
I shouldn't care so much.

And as for my school work.
I really thought through it.
Got lectures from my father,
got counselling from jiejie and rockizuka...
(I wonder if i should still turn up this wednesday for counselling session?)
I really feel very vexed over this issue.
Both are my commitment, but one of them is my passion.
But... hais...
There are alot of reasons.
It's too many to explain.
I just feel bad, I have to sacrifice one.
I can't possibly sacrifice my studies...

Thanks Xiaobao.
Thanks jiejie and rockizuka.
Thanks Meixuan.

psps. i need you all relink.
coz of some personal reasons.
sorry for the trouble.

[[my eyes are stinging with pain D':]]