They are not just boys.
I'm not bothered by how mischievous or naughty they are.
They are my friends, not just boys, my friends.
It's not ONLY the way they speak to me which hurt me.
It's their actions that hurts too.
'Take this as a challenge, it's the first step to be a better leader.'
Of course I can overcome it if other boys do that to me.
Because I don't care if I offend them, I don't care if I've hurt them.
But, they are my friends, how do you expect me to offend them?
How can I possibly bear to hurt them?
My problem now is not, how to be a better leader,
but it is, how to be a better friend?

It's not the time for people to tell me what to do,
I just need encouragement and support from my friends.
Just for the time being, I need the encouragement and support.
When I'm feeling better, maybe you all can teach me what to do.

And I'm sorry if I offended anyone in my process of emo-ing.
Because me myself, cannot help myself.
As in, sorry to some people, when you all have trouble you come to me.
But I have troubles myself too, so i can't really help you.
I have to solve my own first, before i help you.
I just need some time alone to sort out my thoughts.

May i ask, is counselling anything wrong?