Glad that the misunderstanding is cleared

Obstacles strengthens the bonds between people (:

I hope we would treasure this friendship and let it last long.

Jasmin doesn't wish history to repeat itself.

Like what happened to Nic and LH back then.

She doesn't want to see it again D:

She's afraid to lose her two very important friends (:

Although I don't always hang out with them,

because of the fact that I'm a girl. =.= lols.

ButI still feel their presence and strong bond.

Friends forever please...

I realised I have been neglecting my family.

I feel so guilty.

I think I should treat them better, and

care and love them more xD

okays everyone! exams are coming!
but it seems nothing to me! hahahas!
not that i damn confident,can i say, i don't care?!?
LOLS! fakefake.
but dunno lehh. damnn lazyy to studyyy.
can someone motivate me? hahahas!
anyways, good luck for exams people! :D
especially mr. GEOGRAPHY,
who sort of like don't give a damn to his exams? lols!
mr. GEOGRAPHY! please studyyy! lolls!
and make sure you score for your GEOGRAPHY! xD
mr. GEOGRAPHY and ms. CHIMEOLOGY are loved. hahas.


Today is the investiture of the 5th student council! (:
Although, I only joined the council for about 2months?
But I still feel very welcomed and accepted into this family!
I never feel lonely when I'm with the council! really!
I learnt manymany things from the seniors.
Especially through Jerrick's lectures, and quotes (:
with great sacrifice comes great victory.
The role of leadership is to produce more leaders,
NOT more followers.
leadership is action, not position.
Actually, after I joined the council.
I become more confident in myself,
but I must also remember not to become complacent.
I have more confidence in speaking up, and I dare to lead :D

I miss the days when I was a kid.

All so trust-ful(is there such a word?) towards the world.

All the innocent mindsets, and the unawareness of the 'dangers' around.
And we're like so protected.

Now as we grow, alot of things would enter into our lives.
From family problems to friendship matters.
All these problems are like switched on water taps, always flowing continuously.
Never stopping, problems after another.
When I was a kid, and an arguement breaks out in the family,
I would always be the one, sitting by the side, crying, not knowing what to do.
At least back then, i don't have to rack my brains and give comments on the probs.
but now? 'Jasmin, you're old enough to have a say in this'
like.. LOLS! funny right... why get me involved??
But nvm, I don't mind sharing the family burden with my parents.
except that more pressure and stress would be on my shoulders.
then it comes to relationship matters, no comments.
although, now, i still dwell over it sometimes.
it's over right?? but it's really inevitable to think about it sometimes.
And i never stop having friendship matters. NEVER.
at least last time, when there's friendship problems.
Like last time, Sihan, Pebbles and me have problems.
at least we would sit down together and have a talk.
But now? not even quarrels? no conflicts? arguements? nonono?
Does this show that, this friendship is not important at all?
omgosh, it's just problems after problems.
then it will be study problems later on.
just you all watch and see. but... what can i do??
THINK POSITIVE.

That lonely night, I was feeling very sick.

I called you, because I hope to have your company.

But nope, you did not pick up my call, or call me back?

I had no one to turn to, except deying.

I told you I had to absent myself from the meet-up,

but i did not tell you the reason why.

Because, i didn't want you to worry.

(or would you even do that?)

I treated you as my goodfriend.

Do you, from the bottom of your heart, treat me as one too?

Even when we were drifting apart,

because so many things has happened.

Is it really not obvious enough that, I'm sick?

Is it really so hard to tell?

But that's not the main point.

The main point is, is it really my fault that I ps-ed you?

Can't I just get that little understanding from you?

Is explanation really that important?

I thought, explanation is not important.

Because enemies won't believe it, and friends don't need it?

Is our friendship going to end just because of this tiny thing?

Or is our friendship going to end like that

because of the many things that happened so far?

Can't our friendship over those challenges and obstacles?

Or do you think that this friendship of ours is not very important?

I can honestly tell you, I treasure this friendship,

that's why I'm dissapointed over what has happened.

I just need that understanding from you. that's all. nothing more.

I hope the misunderstandings between us can be cleared soon.

But, I have little confidence that it will be cleared soon.

here to post for today (:
nothing much happened today.
but, i really think alot about some things today.
hahas.

thanks.

here to post ((:
2 wasted days. hais.
didn't studyy much.
yesterday ended quite late ((:
and was veryy tired!
but must remain positive! woohoo! :D

And thanks for the care and concern guys (:
especially hendi! lols! sooo sorry man!
when i cough use his jacket to cover my mouth! xD

this morning woke up at 11am plus.
then went back to sleep about 12plus.
i tried to studyy! but when i see books only!
headache headache headache! lols.
then slept until 4plus.
KYC's sms woke me uppp! lols.

I got a fever! I'm hot! I can't be stop! hohoho!

*cough!* lols. keep coughing! grrr!

but still... must have a positive attitude! hahas!

*ahem* when on the bink of death, also must remain positive!

fakefake! lollls!

yesterday, at night, was feeling veryyy sick

and felt lonely too. luckily deying was with me.

thanks deying, for being here with me when i was feeling lonely.

i really want to thank you from the bottom of my heart.

you were there when i needed someone D':

I feel so lonely nowadays.

I feel so sad.

What should I do? D':

okays! here to posttt. lols.
it's the 2nd time shimin asked me,
你最近还好吗? lols!
okays. i shall answer you then! hahas.
i'm so alright okays. lols!
i'm feeling soooo happy and free now!
don't worry ya! lols. thanks anyway. ((:
i feel so blessed,
because i still have friendship and kinship.
i have alot of people who are willing to stand by me (:
really, although i still think back, but it's just memories.
memories i wish to forget xD but, it doesn't really matter to me anymore luhhs.
i'm happy and satisfied with myself now ((:

today, as usual headed to studyy!
first went to lunch with laopo at bukitbatok.
then made our way to bukitviewpri.
then went to studyy le. but then, laopo and i were tired.
so we slept. lols! slept till 4- 5pm.
then we got up and studied... hmmm. ya.

later im going to study again? lols.

[[Even the strongest person breaks down]]

Today school was fine (:
Just felt emo in the morning! lols.
the horoscope so accurate lorr.
before that i didn't go and read lehh,
until i saw the book on my desk this morning,
i went to read and it said
i'll be feeling down today, and i'll need time to be normal again. lols.
but now, i'm feeling okay le (: hahas.

today, i got bullied! sobs sobs! lols :p
choochoo stuffed the cloth into my mouth!
nev and KYC 'tut' me!
choochoo and KYC beat me!
i feel so sad and depressed!
i don't dare to go to schoooool anymore!
eh.. fakefake! lols!
i today after recess become siaosiao again luhhs. lols.

played catching with Qad,diwei and nev today :D
had funn! i realised... i've grow old!
i no more energy to play catching! ahhas!
fakefake.
i went to xiaobao's house in the late afternoon today.
studied. i studied today lehh! hahas!
i feel so proud of myself! lols.

now, i'm going to go studyy again? lols. okays. ya.
soooo... byeeee!

[[People who slash themselves, are actually vulnerable on the inside]]

Feeling sadd and confused right now ):
sometimes, i really don't know what the people around me are thinking.
now, i'm beginning to lose trust towards the world.
in the past, i used to think, everyone is kind.
they won't harm me.
but as i grow, having to witness and experience all the unpleasant things.
i would wonder why?
why is this world like this? hais ):
and from these experiences, i slowly lose trustn this world.

i just feel so sad right now. i don't know what to do.
sadd sadd. sadd when i see my friends troubled or sad.
because there's nothing i can do to help them,
i can only stand by their side watching them helplessly.
i'm sorry. there's nothing i can do to make you feel better. ):
i feel so... feel soo...hais... DDD':

i feel like crying. it's as if all the troubles are in my tears.
but they just won't come out. they're forever so stubborn.
sometimes, my head just feels sooo heavy,
and i feel that i need a shoulder to rest on.
a shoulder that would give me that sense of assurance and security.
it really doesn't have to be the shoulders of a boyfriend.
just a friend will do. but... hais...
how i wish i can cry out loudly! but i can't! why?!?
why must these stupid tears of mine be so stubborn?!?
i want to vent out all my
frustrations,worries,troubles,sadness,confusion and whatever!
how to?!? is there a way?!? can someone please help me! please save me!
i want a fever! my head is as if going to burst!
i need the fever! for the heat to come out of my body!
my worries are also as if the heat in my body!
do all of you understand?!? understand anot?!?

i'm depressed. sad. confused. stressed.

i'm sad.
i'm sad.
i'm sad.

[[Jasmin is feeling so sad]]

Here to post! ((: about yesterday? and today! (:

okays, so yesterday, went to jp library.
with QAD, choo, and KYC.
then went to the basketball court with choo and KYC.
i feel so left out, being the only girl there.
like so awkward. sooo weird. lols.
but nvm! being able to see dear choochoo and KYC play basketball!
is also a type of happiness o.o! LOLS! w.t.h. hahas!
well, i like to see people play basketball, veryyy coool. lols.
okays, ya. so that's all about yesterday.

okays, about today. morning, did duty.
and then the voting of the president begun! hoho!
good luck to all three candidates!
Yeo Weilun! Nelson Tan! and Loh Huiming!
good luck to all of you!
it doesn't matter who's the president ((:
all of you are good leaders and good people. ((:
as long as the student council is one, it doesn't matter ((:
I love the student council!

okays, then duringg math lesson, choo and KYC disiao me =.=!
nvm! it's okay! it's all over! i'm a very outgoing person! lols!
say what you all want to say! coz i think, it's time i move on! ((:
lols! so you all want to suann, jiu suann lor. wanna disiao, jiu disiao.
lols. i don't care le xDD i'm becoming more and more positive!
more positive and cheerful and crazzaye as before! hoho!
i think the pre-training camp turned me back to my normal self. lols!

ahhas! i'm starting to love life! again!
starting to love my friends moreee!
hahas! yay! I am jasmin low! (((:

today went to bukit batok mac with choo, KYC, linsen and neville.
you see you see... i'm the odd one out again. lols.
I don't mind, really, i'm just worried that they mind.
I need their assuarance ((: choo! KYC! see that?!?
i need an assuarance from my friends! lolls!
okays. lols. ya really. just worried they may think i'm extra.
i feel that, now in my life, i have more male friends then female?
is there something wronggg? lols. like, all my verrrryyyy closeeee
female friends, most are from primary schoooool.
except for in student council la. i have many female goodfriends in sc!lols.
but we don't hang out often luhhs. coz different classs. lols.
okays after mac, went to library. o.m.g la!
i very guai lehhh! i did my homework la! lols! hoho! i feel so proud of myself! xDD

after that, i went to xiaobao laopo's house.
as usual, i talked alot of crappp! hohoho! nvm, it's okay.
at least she felt entertained! xDD
then jieying come back, lols.
i teach her math worr! xiaobao never teach her de! lols!
whatever... i also don't teach my own sister! LOLS! xDD
i 8pm then head home! ahhas! pro la! now gonna study gonghan. lols.
okok. i gtg now! BYEEEE!

Here to post! ((: Back from camp.
I feel that, now I'm more more bonded to the council.
During the camp, we had 3 lectures.
First It's on leadership, project management and then public speaking.
The lecture for leadership is quite useful to me.
I've learnt a lot of qualities a leader should have,
and I remember the ABCs a leader should have ((:
We will improve on our discipline.
Also, gained some notes on public speaking.
I can speak, I just need preparation and have to have more self-confidence.


We had a confession night too.
Most of the comments given to me was that, I'M CRAZAYYYE! wooo! lols.
Ya, that's a positive and negative comment (:
You see, It's not that I've totally changed.
I am still the crazy me, I just choose who to be crazy in front of.
But I will try my best not to be toooo crazy (:
I realised, It's always me and darlinggg huimin who's the one self-highing! lols.
Like so awkward, but... who cares?!? xDD hohoho!


Forgot to introduce my family member! aka group. lols.
Hendianto!
darlinggg huimin!
eraineee!
Hippomama!
Wei Jie!
Rosamund!
Anna!
Beegim!
Edmund! (sad to say, he couldn't come D:)
was crazy-inggg around with hippomama and darlingg! ahhas!
Did HYSC cheer, group cheer and banner tooo! hehe.
Hendi is artistic! lols. hahas.


Had funnnn during the water games!
When playing the obstacles station,
Jerrick laughed at meee! He say I look like what?!?
The what da chang jin?!!?
Luckily i control my laughter zeh! lols.
We're sprayed by water hose. lolls.


Thank you OTs for the effort and hardwork you all have put in for this camp!
we really appreciate and thank all of you alot!
for the knowledge you've passed down to us!
and the funn you all gave us!

Yesterday night. chatted with choochoo.
suddenly talked about, being together with a close friend.
as in, BGR with your close friends.
Then i say, if that's the case, i'll be more scared. lols.

[1sthysscm]MR is my surname . yellow is my name. yo. how are u dudes.wo shi zhong guo ren (:
if
i stead wif u
den breakk
i mus be careful
of my kuku

[4thHYSC] J-ASMIN LOW. Miss Pink ♥ Apologise
LOLLLS!
wakao. u have girlfriend man. thinking of next time if stead again.
haiyoyo!
lols! fakefake

[1sthysscm]MR is my surname . yellow is my name. yo. how are u dudes.wo shi zhong guo ren (:
i jus said
IF.

[4thHYSC] J-ASMIN LOW. Miss Pink ♥ Apologise
cannot!
cannot IF!
fakefake

[1sthysscm]MR is my surname . yellow is my name. yo. how are u dudes.wo shi zhong guo ren (:
aiya

[4thHYSC]J-ASMIN LOW. Miss Pink ♥ Apologise
xDDDDD

[1sthysscm]MR is my surname . yellow is my name. yo. how are u dudes.wo shi zhong guo ren (:
i also know
impossible
that i will stead wit u

[4thHYSC] J-ASMIN LOW. Miss Pink ♥ Apologise
ya lor... who wan u.
fakefake
budden hor
IF IF. really happens right. i will more scared.
because is close friend ma. then if got relationship
dunno what will happen
then if break
then affect even the friendship
bo hua
lols!

[1sthysscm]MR is my surname . yellow is my name. yo. how are u dudes.wo shi zhong guo ren (:
lols
yea
so i will nv steadt
someone
in my class
or sch de

[4thHYSC] J-ASMIN LOW. Miss Pink ♥ Apologise
o.o lols.
if its stead with close friend.
then i wanna be close with that friend for a few years first. friendship must stable first
lols!
5years.
6years.

[1sthysscm]MR is my surname . yellow is my name. yo. how are u dudes.wo shi zhong guo ren (:
wow.

[4thHYSC] J-ASMIN LOW. Miss Pink ♥ Apologise
7years.
dunno
lols.

Later meeting up with QAD and choochoo.
go jp library studyyyy.

[[People will lose confdence in a leader who believes himself to be perfect]]

Today, I didn't sleep in class (:
I feel so proud of myself. hehes.

Today went to health promotion board.
For some anti-smoking thing la. hahas.
Janniza got red ink all over her hands. lols.


came home, and practised trumpet.
Practised hundington. lols.
yay! i know the rythm for the whole piece le!
Jasmin rocks so much! I love Jasmin! (((:

[[Please refrain from starting rumours]]

Nothing much happened today.

Don't mention him again please.
It would just make me emotional.
It would just make me sad.
I'm sure my true friends don't want to see me sad.
It' really not important to know what happened,
what's important is that,
my true friends just want to see me happy right?
And they know, if they start asking, I'll just get sadd.
If I choose to remain silent,
they'll just keep quiet and be with me through my hard times.
They know I'll tell them when I want to.
It's not that everything I have to say,
Is it really not obvious and hard to understand?

I'm really sorry. I know I've changed.
But everyone change. It's not wrong to change.
Have my changes affected the people around me?
as in negatively?I don't think so...?
But if I have, really, just voice it out.
It's just that, I have become less cheerful and crazyy?
Hey, I'm also human, I have feelings too okay...
Is it wrong to be sadd? Is it? DDD':

Don't make me think of my unhappiness.
Don't remind me of my unhappiness. )))':
It's really very torturing. really really very torturing.
Please don't force me. Please don't.

Sihui, sorry, everytime I'm in a bad mood,
you're always the one who 'suffers'.
But sometimes, when I'm feeling unhappy.
I don't want people to comfort or console me.
I wish to be alone JUST for awhile,
be alone to reflect and think back what I've done wrong.

[[Jasmin is a bad girl]]

okays, today had the performance.
our class' production play, i was narrator.
okays la, lols, not first time go up stage narrate. ahhas.
but still, quite nervous la.
scareded that i would say wrong things. lols.

then had band. (: music brights up my life.
it expresses my mood, happy or sad... lols.
i love music so much. (: i cannot live without it. hahas.

actually nothing much to blog about today.
Pebbles requested me to do the survey... (: lols.
1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Idk.

2. What I want the most now?
I want alot of things leh.
But most importantly, for my friends and family to be happy.

3. Who is the person you trust the most?
Quite a few. So... there's really no one i trust the MOST.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
It depends.

5. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
...

6. Are you satisfied with yourself?
Of course not...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
My friends and family.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Idk. Can anyone show me if there really is?

9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
No. I'm not that kind of person.

10. What feeling do you love most?
Being loved??

11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
I want the 5 Cs. Lols. fakefake.
Of course must have moral values.
Must be able to get along well with my friends and family.
Must trust me and have to be understanding.

12. What feeling do you hate the most?
Idk.

13. Do you cherish very single friendship of yours?
Honestly speaking, not every. But i'll try to. lols.
But I defenitely cherish the friendship with my close friends. (:

14. Do you believe in god?
Yes.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My friends and family.

16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
ALL.

17. Whose your bestfriend?
Don't have a bestfriend. But i have manymany close friends.
I have 3 laopos, 2 QADs, 1 qizi, 1 darling and 1 mahal.
and other very closeclose friends.
I have alot of friends (((((:

18. What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
I want to let them know that I'll be there whenever they need me (:
They can trust me.

19. Describe the person (PEBBLES) who tagged you in 5 words.
-chiobu! siaocharbo! ah lian! kaobei! kaobu! xDD fakefake.
I shall be a civilised and refine citizen. Lols.
-Cute. Fun. Vain! xD sensitive. CRAZAYYEEE! xDD

20. Do you think there'd be peace in this world?
Idk.

Instructions:
Remove 1 qns from above and add in your personal qns.
make it a total of 20 qns.
then tag 8 people in your list.
list them out at the end of this post.
notify them in their chatbox that he/she have been tagged.
whoever does the tag,
would have a blessing from all.

- xiaobaolaopo!
-angelalaopo!
-qiziDEYING!
-qadXINYI!
-darlingHUIMIN!
-mahalCHANELLE!
-Kohyingchong!
-NicholasYeo!

[[Jasmin loves music]]

Just now, someone asked me a question.
A question which caused me to be stunned,
A question which made me think really hard.

If one day, i would have to choose between my stead and my friends.
who would i choose?

okays. Let's talk about friends first.
I hope my friends can be the understanding and magnanimous one.
Those of you, who had stead before, should know the feeling.
When you had to choose between your stead and your friends.
You will feel pressurised/stressed up/unhappy/confused or whatever right?
So what do you wish to gain?
You wish to gain both their understandings right?
You wish that they could understand what you're going through
and hope they would stop their nonsense and stop being loggerheads.
For example, if that stead of yours, was with you for like a few months or even years.
and the bond between both of you is really strong,and you really love each other,
and your friends know that your stead is very important to you.
They should know that, if both of you break up, you would be very depressed and sadded.
And if they don't want to see you sad,
they'd give in but still be by your side when you need them.
Yes, this is called a friend la. *ahem* I am one. LOLS!!

weird la. it's weird using the word stead. lols.
because one of my teacher once told us, stead means going to get married.
nvm, i think i shall stick to boyfriend/girlfriend. sounds nicer. hahas.

Ya, i hope this situation would never happen to me la. lols!
but if it really happens, i would try my very best to think of a win-win solution.
My boyfriend should be one who is able to get along with my friends and family.
If not he won't be my boyfriend... lalalas...
anyway, it would be loooong until this situation would arrive to me.
and it would be loooong until i have a boyfriend!
because! i'm now single, and currently only loving.





















MY FRIENDS!





















hohoho! Friends are forever! Lovers are whatever! hahahas!
fakefake! lols...!
I think i would get over my past really fast!
with the support from all my friends! :DD
I don't want to think about him man!
Think about him only will sad!
and once my friends see me sad!
they'll be sad too.
i don't want to see my friends sad!
so i am going live happily for my friends! and family ((;

I LOVE YOU! MY FRIENDS! FOREVER! xDD

[[Friendship is forever!]]

Hi! (: here to post! (:
changed my blogskin, and gonna change the songg! :D
Friends are foreverr! the song's title would be 分享, it's about friendship de.
and it's a song which describes how i feel towards my loved friends (:
Friends are veryyy important! (:
now imeem got abit of problem de lorr. so the music wont be putting up yet ;D

kaes, let's take out examples. . . xD
Last time, i had conflicts and misunderstandings with this friend.
I had no one to go to except for my friends. lols!
I have family problems... who do i go to?
my friends la! although they didn't help, but at least they listened.
and at least they 减轻 the burden in me :D
What about relationship problems?
i can't possible go to my father or mother say,
pa, ma! i broke up with my boyfriend! omgosh! they'll kill me la! lols!
so? who do i go to when i'm sadd/angry or whatever?
my friends luhhs!
even when you're happy, you can just be crazyy, go up to them and say.
darlingg! i'm so happyyy! xD
do you know if you tell them this, they'll feel happy too?
because they know you still take them for a friend,
and tell them what you're thinking and how you're feeling.
hohoho! I simply love my friends! they are the ones! hohoho! (:

errm. lalala... today reached home damn early de lor.
reached home about 3pm. very early hor?!? xDD
actually wanted to find friends go play basketball.
but cannot find anyone, lols, all busy.
been slacking this whole afternoon, playing insaniquarium hahas.
i didn't bring any books home today! siannn. forgotten to bring home.
hais! siansiansian. this whole week won't be free.
goodgood! keep me busy! lalala... i want to be busybusybusy! (:

tuesday have band.
wednesday have rulang.
thursday have dunno what anti smoking thing.
friday i think have sc stuffs.

lalala... i think i stop here ba... lalala...

[[I'd rather love my friends than love you]]

Hey guys. here to post (:
a slack-ed day... yea... was searching for a new blogskin.
couldn't find a suitable one. like wth.
i don't even know what i want luhhs. hais.
went to play basketball with dear cousin just now.
i sweat out all my troubles and sorrows.
really very shuangg lor, when the ball gets into the hoop.
you will feel contented and have a sense of satisfaction.
but when the ball somehow can't get into the hoop,
it would be frustration and angry-ness. lols.
yea... really felt much better after playing basketball.
i sat on the swings with cousin (:
i'm afraid of heights, but i don't know how i can swing so high.
swing all my troubles away (: hahs...

i don't know what the hell's gotten into me.
why am i still so in love with you when you've hurt me so much?
i wanted to give up... really... but... but...
but you're still the one i miss...
my feelings towards you is hesitating...
i don't know if i should love or hate.
but isn't this two feelings the same?
should i give up? or should i try just once last time?
dear jesus, please enlighten me D:

hais! so many people have sighing so much lately.
like wth la... so many people are troubled by love matters. hais...
for what luhh?!? so angryyy! grrrr! DDx

[[我非常累,只是没时间崩溃]]

slacked the whole day.
just now i thought, and realised.
how much my friends mean to me.
i want to let all my friends know,
how much all of you mean to me (:
really.
i'm speechless,
i just don't know how to express my love to others.
i just sincerely tell all of you,
friends forever. please.

you're still the one i love,
you're still the one i miss,
you're still the on in my heart.

[[Friends are important]]

here to post :)
i paid attention in math lesson for the very first time.
i feel sooo proud of myself. i've decided!
i wanna study very hard! i wanna be a successful person :)
today's weather damn coldd. was sneezing for the whole day.
had band. after band went to meet xiaobao and deying :)

got this from hasif's blog. credited to hasif.
according the the philosopher of love, Ms Angel,
love do not need any explanation.
& come to think of it, will i lose that soul ?
________________________________
what if you did not treasure the time spent with your love ones today ?
will there be tomorrow ?what if you scold/quarrel with that someone ?
will you even know that he/she is hurt with what you have said ?
what if that someone cried ?will you even bother to care ?
what if that someone say that he/she doesn't love you anymore ?
will you even still love that someone ?
what if one day, you promised that someone that you will not leave him/her ?
& one day you come up to him/her and say that you don't love him/her anymore ?
will you even look back into the past and realised that you have promised something ?
have you even treasured the one you love ?

now i know what's the feeling like.
i never thought i would hate him. never ever thought that i would.
but now, that feeling is starting to grow in me.
i'm not sure if the feeling is hate or being afraid.
i'm afraid to meet him someday on the streets.
i'm afraid to see him. i never ever ever want to see him again.
never ever will i want to see him D:

you all think we recover so fast de meh?
its not forget jiu forget de lorr.
just that, we have a positive and strong disposition
that's why we seem so fine.
thank god for blessing me with such qualities.
i feel so blessed. i always feel so blessed.
wakao. now feel so bu shuangg worr. lols. siaosiao de me.
no point thinking about something which would never work out.
i don't need a boyfriend. i don't want a boyfriend.
what the hell! why do i feel so angry all of a sudden! arghhh!

[[why is there hate? because love existed once.]]

today, school as usual.
i'm quite active in PE lessons nowadays. hahas..
yea... had math retest and physics test.
went straight to sc room after school.
for a short meeting. ya... then after that meeting,
stayed back. for dance rehearsal.
bahh... didn't rehearse anyway. lols.
huimin and i did cartwheels together.
i accidentally kicked her ass! LOLS.
sorry darlinggg! hahas! really soo sorry. lols.
then adela and i went to grab a bite.
then when we went back to the sc room.
jerrick was there. and we had a chat.
jerrick said i look like a piglet. =.= like ya.. wth. lols.
laughed our hearts out in the sc room :)
everytime i step into the sc room
i would feel soo happy :) i love the student council.
they chase my troubles and sadness away.
mahal and i are in the same boat D':
mahal don't worry, he did that for your own good :
you still have us :) we have each other :)
we'll be together no matter what :)
i know exactly how you're feeling now,
because i'm also experiencing what you're feeling now.
but no worries D: we still have other things which we can be happy about.
mahal kita!

so many things happened recently,
quite stressed up. but it doesn't matter.
everyone undergoes stress, if there is no stress in your life.
then go get a life man! lols... ... ... ya. crapping again.
i'm such a crap. i'm a lame idiot stupid crapper. D:
no wonder nobody wants me...

confusedconfusedconfused.
just when i wanted to give up,
she said those words which tempted me.
words which made me think about him again.
this morning, when i woke up.
i felt a sense of emptiness in me.
how long would this emptiness last?
it's like i've lost something really important.
and there's no way i can ever get it back.
it just hurts. but i have to face it.
although it's hurtful to let go of this relationship.
but no matter how hard it is, i still have to.
why? why must this happen?
can anyone tell me? tell me what's going on?
i musn't be affected by what others say...
it's my problem. it's my choice.
no one can help me except myself.
i shall make my own decision without having any regrets.
no point feeling sad over it. everyone advised. thanks guys :

specially thanks to choochoo.
who tried to cheer me up this morning.
quite touched. lols! never thought you would do that.
heyhey... i specially thank you worr.
remember to leave a tag hor. hahas.

sorry, deying, just now when you tell me about your troubles.
i have totally nothing to say and nothing to advise about.
sorry, i hope you understand ):
i don't even know what to do about myself now,
so i do not have the rights to tell you what to do.

i just hope that, i would be back to my normal self
someday.
well, at least i will...

[[单纯并不是幸福,反而是痛苦]]

had morning duty today.disappointed in myself,
coz i was one of them.i will learn from my mistakes,
i know what to do from now on.
being a leader is not about the position,
but about the action. thank you jerrick.
you enlightened all of us.
from now on, i would be more serious
when carrying out my duties.

mr kenneth relief our class today.
was really like... crappy and sort of rude.
sorry. lols. i apologised :Dhe said that i was a good student
and a good example for the others. =X hahas.

after school, went to rulang primary school.
for cip work. taught p3 work. okay luhh. damn easy. hahas.
but does that student understand what i was teaching? l.o.l.s

then rushed to bukit view primary,
i thought i could make it with them to singapore conference hall.
but sadly, i was late :( sorry to ah gong.
for not being able to form that "cheerleading" team.

after that, went to meet up with angela laopo.
since no where to go, ya, i've nowhere to go.
then we go find sihan laopo.
i witnessed a "conflict". don't worry sihan.
i believe that he cares, that's why he acted that way.
i believe that he loves you.
although, quarrels and arguements occur.
but if both never thought of leaving each other
and have the determination to be together.
all would be fine :)
then went to westmall with angela laopo.
met with her Y. lols.
sorry angela, i'm quite emo today.
that's why never socialise with him.
if i was my usual self, he would have thought i was crazyy. lols.
and that's what i was suppose to be.
Laopos, thanks for your understandings :)

after that, xiaobao, jieying and i wait for bukit view come back to school.
bukit view got a silver.like, veryyy good. really.
then, went to fetch huili. huili's damn cute la. she make me smile.
children always brighten one's day up.
i was like telling huili, i today very sad, how?
then she down there smile smile,
then i say i wan cry, then she very cute wor!
that innocent face. made me burst out laughing lols.
although i know huili won't see it. but thanks huili. :)

then i was walking to the bus stop. alone.
when i passed a car, and someone called me from that car.
hahas. it was jiayi and mr goh. okays...
i still think call mr goh better. hahas.
thanks mr goh, for cheering me up.
continue your lame jokes and craps. i love it. lols.

i'd like to thank everyone who tried to brighten my day up.
really. thanks alot people. you guys rock.

"Nobody can hurt you, even me." "You need someone."
"I wait for you." "Don't leave me."
all these are said in a moment of rashness.
i've lost my self-confidence, i don't know if i can ever stand up again.
now i know what's the feeling of once bitten twice shy.

but i'm a strong girl.

just now, i planned to walk home alone.
but i didn't have a chance afterall :)
friends are everywhere.

别说对不起

望远镜 看不见你
你的心 飞去哪里
雾上飞行 享受黑夜的静凝
别说对不起 别让我伤了心才说
不是故意 我却无法怪你
别说对不起 别让我的爱情变成
廉价物品 我却只能爱你
闭上眼睛 却看见你
想你的好 代替无力
我相信你 却开始不信任自己
别说对不起 别让我灰了心才说不是故意
我却无法怪你 别说对不起别让我的爱情变的
小心翼翼 我却只能爱你
用行动来证明 你的决心 不要说说而已
我想要的不只是sorry

[[how do you heal a broken heart?]]

here to post :)
now thinking back to the past. lols.
nice memories... :) especially the times we had in band.
the 2004 batch is most loved. followed by 2006 batch.
2004's piece, ashland park overture.
the piece which would make us drop tears.
because then, we'll think back to the hard time we've gone through.
and feeling most glad to have each other by our sides.
pebbles,daisy,eunice,lushixin,jiahao...and more. my good buddies.
although we didn't achieve what we wanted,
but we tried :) and i'm proud of our achievement.

the 2006 batch. also gave me nice memories :)
i'll never forget the times we had together.
deying,chiawen,pebbles,ebel,brandon,nicholas.
all of you are sooooo loved. :))
i'll never forget the nice and touching words mr chong aka ah gong gave me.
i wish i never have to grow up.
childhood memories are nice. i wish i can go back to the past.
but the past is the past, only memories can be left behind.

i love my childhood times.
all are nice memories :)
i will never forget the happy times we had together.
i will never forget you, my dear friends.

.sihan.irene.angela.deying
.brandon.nicholas.lihao
.pebbles.mrchong.chiawen
.ebel.daisy.eunice.jiahao
.lushixin.yihan.sarita
.eveline.zhisheng.joanne

lalala... childhood memories.. <33!

After 3 days! xD i'm finally posting!
hohoho! okayss.
i know nowadays, i'm more serious and less fun.
people change alright...
it's not that i'm becoming more attitude la.
just that, when it's time to play.
then play! play as crazy as you want i don't care!
lols. but if it's time to work.
then i choose not to play luhhs.
is this considered a bad thing??? D:

okays. post about this 2 days ba.
so it;s gonna be a loooong post.
okays. friday nothing much happened.
saturday is speech day. crap la! lols!
the back row sit under the sun and perform leh!
no wonder i getting tanner and tanner la! grrr!
anyone who see me will say that to me. lols.
nvm, xi guan jiu hao. hahhas.
toooook damnnnn lotsa photos! hahahas! pro la! xDD
then in the afternoon, went to sc room.
then went to eat lunch with QAD and KYC.
i lightbulb again. lollls! =X =X
after that, went to QAD house. watch dnyby.
then i watch watch watch, halfway slept, slept until 3.30pm.
then felt veryyy colddd. dunno why.
there would be this certain time of the day,
when i would feeeel coooooold. =X
then went to QAD room cover blanket and slept. hoho!
slept till 4pm. QAD chat on phone so noisy.. lols! xD
then slack slack slack. till 5+
after that went home. and played bball with beloved cousin! xD
played until 7plus. hohoho! bball rocks! xD
then went to shower all that, go cousin house.
stayed there till 10plusss! xDD hahas! cooooooool la!











okays! talk about sunday! errm. oh! okok.
in the morning, KYC ask me if want go watch movie.
coz it's neville's birthday, then i say don't want.
then i went back to sleeeep. then QAD call me! grrr!
lols! nvm, it's late le. so i should get up le. hahas.
then talked to her on phone. she persuade me go.
but i say duwan duwan duwan.
all couple couple de! want me go damnnn extra lorrs! =.=
but in the end still went. coz QAD blackmailed me. hahas! badddie!
fangfang so sweeet lorr. lols! and she very easy to bully! hahas!
but in the end didn't go watch movie la. :) secret. lols.
fangfang is sweeeeet. lolls. errm. then actually wanna go play bball after that
but no have bball. lols! craps! slacked at the playground near QAD house.
then after that went QAD house study math.
then go out dinner with parents lerr.



about todayyy! :D HUIMIN'S birthday! :D
darlingHUIMIN! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I LOVE YOU! ;D
hahahas! read her birthday cards. damn nice. lols!
okays. errm. today went to bukit view band :)
hohoho! i combo-ed ah gong! hahas! nice lorr!
who ask him suan me! forget it lorr!
coz mdm rahayu asking me why i becoming more and more tan.
then i say i do alot of outdoor activities.
then they say orh okay lor. not bad la tan skin.
then they say i purposely go sun tanning.
kns! lols! no lorrr! i duwan tan skin! i like fair skin!
then i point out to one of my juniors. sally.
she very pretty de. lols! then her skin very nice.
fair fair with rosy cheeks. then i say i wan be like her.
then idiot mr chong say forget it ba. she heaven i earth also not!
LAWLS lor! nvm! i combo-ed him. shuanggg. xD
then i say wednesday duwan go SCH support him le.
then he so called apologise! xD i win lorr! i win lorrrr! xDD
then went with xiaobao and jieying. go fetch huili.
huili so cuteeee lorr! hahas! xiao ke ai! xiaobao! huili replace u le! xDD
and now, i'm home blogging. lols!

i like to take pictures with mr chonggg! xD
coz then i'll look small and thin! hahahas! crapssss!

[[xiaohui is deeply in love with music!]]

Jasmin would be MIA from her blog.
for 3 days.
because she like.
sorry for any inconvenience caused.
thank you for your co-operation.

nobody really reads anyway.

I totally lose interest in Mr Kenneth. LOLS!
omgosh! i'm deceiving myself! lolls!
I was like soo friendly to him luhh!
yesterday i said,"hi mr kenneth!"
and then he waved back. lollls!
then today, i said,"bye mr kenneth!"
and you know what he replied?!?
"do i know you?" then he thought for awhile and say,
"oh! were you the one who scolded me?"
how can i scold him?!? why would i scold him?!?
well, ya... am i crapping? lols...

today i ps so manyyy people! =X
today, wasn't able to go to bvps band.
tomorrow, won't be able to make it too.
sadded la! saturday also cannot lorrr!
i so sadded! :((

heard that i tio DC leh!
siannn! why la?!?
i have reason de lorrr!
still tio ar?!? kao!
siannnnn! my reputation!
my nicenice de reputation!
would be ruined! because of DC!
omgoshhhh! zzzzzzzzzzzzz.
now i realised,
it's so much nicer to do detention duty,
then to go for detention class!
next time i won't escape when i have detention duty le!
i will surely go for detention duty!

i so sadddeddd today! DD:
suay suay suay.

OMG! i'm currently high-inggg!
because linsihan laopo!
first time call me laopo! xD
omgosh! (x010408!) lols!

laopo! i love you! xD

today's april fool day...
i think i didn't really get to foool anyone today.
alot of people fooled me, and i was such a foool
to believe them... has...

today after school, stayed back.
for some stuffs, and also for video-ing.
before that, liching, QAD and i was slacking at the canteen.
chatteddddd! thanks liching, told us so many things. lols.
then when most of the people was there,
started video-inggg. later still have to do editing. >.<






still have alot of photos de worr. budden phone sotsot.
cannot uploaddd.