I want to sleep.

I have no idea why, I can't sleep now.

I'm not sure if I want to, or I don't want to.

I can or I can't.

I want to get my work done, but I can't.

Honestly speaking, I have times when I just want to drop everything I'm doing, go to a corner, isolate myself and just read. My bible.

Am I okay? YES I'M OKAY! 

IF GOD IS FOR US! WHO CAN BE AGAINST US?!?

Teeheee. It's only 1.22am in the morning. And whatever that I'm saying now are really sincerely random thoughts.

OK. IMMA GO NOW. BYE. I think I am crazy! (^oo^)

GOD!

GOD!

PLEASE DON'T STOP INTERVENING INTO MY LIFE!

I NEED YOU EVERY MOMENT.

YOU CANNOT LEAVE ME.

And I know You won't.

Thank You Lord Jesus.

Jesus Christ paid the price for my life.

If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the lord. 

So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.

Romans 14:8

Am I glad to proclaim that promise given by God? 

That my life belongs to Him!

And this life that belongs to Him was bought by the pain and blood of Jesus Christ.

I just cannot stop reminding myself that this life is to be treasured and treated properly.

And at the same time, joy is constantly filling up in my heart because 

I know this life is no longer mine, but His!

So whatever worries, burdens, 

troubles, problems, 

trials, tribulations, 

disappointment, discouragement, 

AND WHAT NOT.

Is not mine! BUT HIS! 

Teehee!

But it's cool. God is so strong, He can handle anything!

How great is our God! 

Operation First Love!

I'm on my quest to searching back my One true love, 

the One who ever truly filled the emptiness in my heart and overwhelmed me with His love! 

The first time ever I experienced unconditional love and 

am assured even now that this love will last for eternity!

Living life without the tangible presence of God can be really agonizing at times! 

Because I wouldn't know where to find the strength and the joy to face the day!

I always make sure the joy in my heart is always from the Lord, 

and that this overflowing joy that I have within me will also flow into the lives of others (: 

So at least they would see hope and love in this world. 

There's beauty in the ugliness of love.

I miss the days when my faith was childlike and my trust in God was so strong. 

I miss the days when I was not only touch by the love of our Lord Jesus, but the conviction puts my hands into action.

I miss the days when all I desired was to live my life for this high being who'd come down to earth, to experience life as a man, to experience what it is like being tempted by the devil, to experience pain, spiritually, emotionally and physically.

I miss that period when I experienced true love from a God who is willing to sacrifice His life for the world.

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Jesus Christ loves us so much. To the extent of dying for the people who mocked Him, insulted Him, tortured Him; dying for the people who spat at Him, whipped Him, nailed Him to the cross. And all Jesus Christ could say to the Father was, "Forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing."

Every time I'm reminded of His death on the cross for me, I would always feel very very very sad for the sufferings He had to go through for me. 

Imagine a crown of thorns digging deep into your skull, whips with pricks on it being slashed onto your skin, a long nail being pierced into your palms and feet.

Yet, at the same time, I SHOUT UNTO MY LORD AND SAVIOUR! And thank Him for all the sufferings He had to go through!The physical torture on the cross, the emotional lashings from the people whom he loves in this world and the spiritual separation He had to go through with the Father! For if it wasn't God's plan for all these to happen, I wouldn't be who I am today!

And now, as I have received Him into my life.

 I am empowered to live a life like Him. 

My hope is always in Him. 

My identity is secure in Him.

And in times of troubles, I cry out to this faithful lover of my soul who would deliver me from all my troubles!

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And the Lord knows what I'm going through now.

I will not miss those days no more, for I desire to remain like those days, 

when I first met Jesus, and fell so deeply in love with Him.

I want to fall so deeply in love with Jesus Christ.

This is the One true; sacrificial; everlasting love that shines beautifully in the ugliness of a love, explained by this world, that conveys a message of misconception of what true love is.