I love cousin! (: hahas.
Yesterday, went to cousin's house,
she taught me math! (: wahahaha! (:

I arranged my table :D
It's neat now, wahahaha.
And I have additional stuffs :D
To make it look nicer. wahaha.
like cousin's table. lol.
I have a whiteboard right in front of me :D
And I put up my schedule just like cousin!
I also stick tiny notes on the wall.

I LOVE COUSIN!
she sets a good example for me!
and i follow! haha :D
But mine of course not as nice as hers.
hahahaha!

This post is dedicated to COUSIN KAI! :D

A personality quiz taken from cousin's blog.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

quite true (:

Hi people (: thanks all for your well wishes.
and thank you SALADBEAN for collecting my hmwk.
I'm quite alright now :D THROAT INFECTION! hahas.
guess it's because of cheer challenge thing
plus i ate alot of durians and never drink enough water ;P
Got mc for 2 days :D Finally can stay at home and rest :D
cannot shout too much (:

Alot of people falling sick nowadays,
so you all must take care hor! (:
Mr Prawn, you take care ar! (:
And eunice liang also. (:

Btw, Who wanna go tuition with me?
Tuisan Tuition Centre at Boon Lay.
Sec 2s only. 4 lessons $80.
Math and Science. 1 class need 5 students.
Saturday 3-5pm.

Tuisan tuition recognise the financial burden of parents to cater
additional tutor for their children,
and therefore has designed the tuition programmes
with tight budget in consideration.
Their rates are based on a fix price for 4 lessons.
Tuisan tuition programmes are based on group with
minimum of 8 students per class.

This tuition centre is my Jiejie open de.

Now only I'm the only sec 2, I need find 4 more.
The boss say, if don't have 5 people,
then only teaching math ):
but if have at least 5,
then teaching math and science.

This offer is actually very cheap already.
4 lessons $80 go where find right? lol.
Please consider worr.

Lim Xinyi wanna go?
Xiaobao Laopo wanna go?
Pebbles Tan wanna go?
Ebel Lim wanna go?
Eng Liching wanna go?
Angela GOH SHI HUI wanna go?

If no have 5 people,
then cannot wor )):
Very cheap wor, 4 lessons $80.
If you all want more details,
please give me a call wor,
92320058.

[[I'm stronger than the strongest (:]]

Awww mannn.... I just can't bear to let go...
I love them both
It's my choice, don't force me please...
Hais... dunno what to do la.
Don't support don't support.
Everything also don't support.
Crap you la...
Never set good example for your children...
Lamessss....

CAPRICORN WOMAN

A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce.
She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman. In
her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at
home or at an
office and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection.

She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. She will never try to
change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does
not like someone, she will not comments or criticize but she will completely
ignore that person.

She hate plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that you
are not being sincere. She loves real flower and it's scent. She loves a guy
who wear after shave cologne. If you are a type of a guy who wear your Jean
one month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about
her.

She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to
go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take
her fishing too.

She is not as jealous as Aquarius or
Leo woman, but do not cross the line
O.K. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she
feels like loosing face. She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very
neat, so never rush her for this matter.

She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate
degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about
you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If
you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next
stop.

She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands
in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her 'everyone is doing
it, you should do it too', or 'I think you should do it, it's good for you',
because she will do what she wants to do only.

She is a neat and tidy person,
so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not
take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable
such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date.

She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but
sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make
you loose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do.

She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a
favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. She has a high
hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in
'Luck'.

If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet
cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be please. She is a 3
in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect
housewife, a perfect wife or you
could say 'happily ever after'.

wow?

(: Today is a good day (:
Had fun after school, with
JERRICK! WATERMELONPRAWN! HAMKA! at the dance studio!
LOL! was damn crazayyyyeeee! lol.
and i fell down ;P it's damn funny
another cut on my knee. LOL

I'm feeling much better now,
but the problems are still there.
so i cannot leave it just like that,
i will try to sort out my thoughts.
and really a big thank you for those who stand by me (:

especially thanks to JANJAN!
for that sweet "LOVE" letter!
although it's like a few days ago give one, hahas,
but still must compliment her on that! xD fakefake.

I love you guys! (:

And I'm so looking forward to going inline-skating with dearest cousin! (:

[[Smile your life away (:]]

I still feel uncomfortable and uneasy.
When I look at her messages?
When I look at her pictures?
All, just by coincidence, I would still feel uneasy.
Although jiejie told me not to be bothered by it,
but i can't help myself to think about it.
It's like, already in me, like...
it has already left a scar in my heart?

I thought I would feel better after that night,
but, it's just for the time being,
that uneasy feeling is coming back to me.
That sense of insecurity ): it's like haunting me

Like I said, it's problems after problems.
I've always been an indecisive person,
when it comes to disspointing some people.
But, i somehow feel, they don't really welcome me?
I don't know, I just don't feel the spirit?
Or is it because i have been missing in action for so long?
Maybe it's just my fault ):

I thought I've decided, but I somehow...
Somehow feel it's wrong. so wrong?
As in, if i make that decision, i just feel...
like... it's not like that?
grrr... what am i talking about? =.=
I don't know what to do?
Why are there so many choices we have to make?
Maybe that's just life... ):

Maybe... counselling is the best for me?
But... where is the time? lols... zzz...

[[Everyone is born with challenges in their life, just don't give up and you'll never fail]]

Lol. People change.
I know you know that. I change too.
Anyway, (: what's the difference between
the old me? and the present me?
You don't expect me to be
crazy my whole life right? (:
Positive and enthusiastic for the rest of my life is okay(:
But crazy for the rest of my life is definitely a no (:
I'm still me (:

Huimin said to me,
Life is too short to be anyone else,
always be happy with what you have,
who you are and how you feel.
always remember you are you (:

I'm not being anyone else, I'm me.
I'm happy with what I have,
and I don't complain about things I don't have.
I'm satsfied with who i am, and of course,
you can't always be happy how you feel.
Don't tell me, you will still feel happy,
say when you got ditched by a guy? LOL. ;P
It's only an example (:
And I always remember that I am I.
It's just someone else, who always drill into my head,
saying I'm not me anymore.
But I won't get affected (:
Because, i trust and believe in myself (:

My change isn't a bad thing,
I think that it's not a bad thing.
Because my conscience is clear,
and I did not do anything wrong.
I just decided and make this choice to be who I am now.

There are many choices to make in life.
I may have made this decision,
some may be happy, some may not.
But at the end of the day,
the choice still lies with me.
Ya, and once I've made that choice,
i shall not regret it.

I don't just simply decide what to do,
I go through a lot of thinking,
reflecting and thinking of the consequences.
And of course, the consequences,
there are good and there are bad.
But I just have to sacrifice someone else's disspointment.
One will be happy while the other would be disspointed.
All I have to say is just sorry,
I still decided to do that ):
I myself will feel bad too...
But this feeling, would still be there.
I should just move on.
I hope you all won't blame me and try to put yourself in my shoes.
Because my situation is not any ordinary situation... ):

[[I hope you all won't blame me for what I decided to do]]

I've decided.

I'm still a positive thinker!

There are some things I can just leave a side and don't give a damn.
But i somehow feel irresponsible and bad?
But, it's not my problem anyway.
It's the fued between them.
I shouldn't care so much.

And as for my school work.
I really thought through it.
Got lectures from my father,
got counselling from jiejie and rockizuka...
(I wonder if i should still turn up this wednesday for counselling session?)
I really feel very vexed over this issue.
Both are my commitment, but one of them is my passion.
But... hais...
There are alot of reasons.
It's too many to explain.
I just feel bad, I have to sacrifice one.
I can't possibly sacrifice my studies...

Thanks Xiaobao.
Thanks jiejie and rockizuka.
Thanks Meixuan.

psps. i need you all relink.
coz of some personal reasons.
sorry for the trouble.

[[my eyes are stinging with pain D':]]

It's not the end result that matters the most!
It's the process! It's the process! ):
The end result is just something to...
Pick us up from our feet, or to give us confidence.

My dad is just so stubborn.
I tried talking to him,
but he just don't understand.
He insist that we have to listen to him.
He listen to what I say,
but he don't agree with me...
99% disagree with me.

Why can't he try to understand what I;m trying to say?
He is just so harsh in his words.
He says things to demoralise his daughter.
I know he meant well, he just wants us to work hard.
And that's exactly what I;m doing now.
Maybe I will put in 100% effort,
since now it's only 80%...

I'm referring to Jamie, she's not like me.
She needs encouragement and support from her parents.
Just show her a little more love and care...
Why must parents always keep their love from their children?
Why? Is it so embarassing?
If you love, dare to love, dare to show.
Why keep? then might as well don't love...
You think what you doing now very wei da?
No! It doesn't work on JAMIE!

I can't rest yet.
I make this blog private,
because i don't wish people to see the negative side of me.
I'm a positive girl.
I don't wanna give up yet.
I'm still fighting ):

I'm really feeling very depressed about this matter.

I thought and tried all ways to find solutions,

but it won't be of any help anyway.

I just hope my friends can give me encouragements and support,

and not tell me what to do for now.

These are what I need most from my friends now.

it's something my family cannot do,

only my friends can... and it's what i need MOST from you all now ):

When my emotions get stable, then will I ask for advise ):

Of course I tried putting myself in her shoes.

She's a child from a broken family,

I may not know what she's thinking

But I know how she feels,

because I'm roughly going through what she has gone through.

And what i'm going through now,

the feeling is, say... 3 times as worse as her?

Because, I'm now feeling very scared.

Afraid to lose my whole family?

Afraid I may have to leave my friends?

Afraid of many more things, than how she felt when her parents divorced.

And should I say, she likes it?

She wants me to go through the sufferings she had?

Since young, I respected her as my elder sister.

I always talk to her about my problems,

and I trusted her.

I loved her, and I thought she loved me too.

But I don't know if I should trust her now.

Because, she don't care about me anymore,

and she sort of like communicate with me in a threatening manner.

In a sarcastic, stupid, idiotic and threatening manner.

My mother took care of her since young.

My father contributed so much for her in her studies.

I was so obedient towards her.

I don't always listen to my parents,

but always listen to what she says.

Yet.... this must happen?

I think she hates me.

She hates me because I share the same father as her.

She hates me because my parents did not divorce.

She hates me because she couldn't imagine why my dad had to remarry.

She hates me when I'm happy.

She hates me when I smile.

She hates me when I'm better in school than her.

She hates me when I get on good terms with my father.

She hates me when I get close to Jessie Jiejie.

She hates me because of manymany more reasons.

She just hates me.

I hate the feeling of hate.

She has done so many things to hurt me.

Should I hate her tooo?

These problems are flowing continuously,

one after another.

Luckily if one after another,

if not, if all the problems happen at one time.

I really don't know how i am going to handle it.

Dear Friends, can you all be more understading towards me?

I'm busy on the outside, and on the inside.

What I mean outside?

Council, Band, goodybooks,tuition, BVPS alumni band.

What I mean inside?

Emotional problems.

sorting out my thoughts.

Thinking of ways to look on the bright side.

Encouraging myself.

Please don't ask me to help you do homework anymore.

Because I am very stressed up.

Don't come and find me anymore please.

GHJH and CCM,

don't worry about the DV thing.

I promise and SWEAR this will be the last time,

I helping you all le.

I so tired siaa...

[[Problems flowing continuously]]

IMPORTANT NEWS!

Please, my dear friends.
Please, don't get yourself involve with Jacqueline!
Please! Although she's my eldest sister.
But I don't wish any of you to have anything to do with her.
You wanna go mix around with ah lian ah beng you go,
I dont't care. But please don't even say hi to her.
If not I'll get really really upset.

It's because of her, which cause my family to be like this.
If not only for her, her pettiness, her insensible-ness,
her hatred and jealousy, her stupidity,
I think we'll still be living happily as a family.

Even now, she addresses my family as "your family"
she's telling me that, she's out of my family.
She's telling me that, she doesn't wanna be my sister anymore.
Her hatred towards me is growing each day.
The punishment for the previous' generation mistakes has come,
but the punishments befall me.
I'm not yet ready to take up this punishment,
what punishment would it be??

Would it cause someone's health to deteriorate?
Would it cause someone's death?
Would it cause me to lose my dreams?
Would it cause me to be sent to a faraway place?
Would it cause me to lose my parents?
Would it cause me to leave my friends?

I'm really scared.
With her existing one day,
I shall never rest in peace.
Unless she gets the hatred out of her heart,
then shall I rest in peace.

What is her next step?
I can just sit and wait,
for danger to lurk by...

The whole world can read my blog posts.
except her, because if she sees what I type here.
Not only will I be in trouble,
the whole world would.

It's really problems after problems.
I think my zibi class problem just solved,
Now it's this problem.
This problem which had been stagnant for very long,
the volcanoe is going to erupt.

What is going to happen to this family?
What will happen to me?
What will happen to my parents?
What will happen to Jiejie and Jamie?
What will happen to my dreams and future?

I'm really confused, and really stressed out.
This is not an ordinary domestic affair.
It's a complicated one,
which i think, only 1/10 people would encounter.
I'm really a very busy person, but I'm enjoying it.
I think that, I should always stress out myself,
to keep myself from thinking about unnecessary problems.

I'm committed to many stuffs,
Band, council, studies, goodybooks
and maybe I'm going to have tuition.
Band, council and studies is compulsory.
Goodybooks, I want, to earn extra income.
And tuition, I need, My results suck.

I don't mind being stressed out by my commitments.
But why must it be so problematic?
I hate to get myself involved in domestic affairs.
But i cannot escape.

This is not as simple as you think.
One small action, and the whole thing would be spoiled.
I don't know what would happen to me.
I really don't know.
I'm really afraid, why must it be like this?

God, tell me what to do.
Lead me to the right path.

GET THAT SPOILER TO HER SENSES!

Copied this from Khiameng's blog (:

[#01]How are you feeling today?
Good (: Coz I got to meet Han Laopo and Ah girl.

[#02]Will you get far in life?
I'm aiming to go far (:

[#03]How do your friends see you?
They see me as a crazy girl.

[#04]Will you get married?
I may.

[#05]What is your best friend's theme song?
Dunno?

[#06]What is the love story of your life?
I haven't had a real one yet (: All I know is that, the first one sucks anyway.

[#07]What was high school like?
High school is what? secondary or tertiary? lol.

[#08]What's in store for this weekend?
Going to goodybooks and hospital to visit friend.

[#09]How's your life going?
As usual, with ups and downs. But faced with a positive attitude.

[#10]How can you get ahead in life?
Think positively, motivate myself and move on (:

[#11]What's the best thing about your friends?
They care for me.

[#12]What song will they play at your funeral?
HUH?! I don't know.

[#13]How does the world see you?
It's not how the world look at us, it's how we look at the world (:

[#14]Do people secretly lust after you?
I don't know?

[#15]How can you make yourself happy?
Hmmm. Talk to friends, watch funny dramas.

[#16]What should you do with your life?
Make the best out of it (:

[#17]Will you ever have children?
I hope not,i don't want them to suffer because of all the environmental issues going on.

[#18]What song will you strip to?
huh? I don't strip to songs eh?

[#19]What does your mummy think of you?
She thinks I'm not good enough (:

[#20]What is your deep dark secret?
I don't really have one.

[#21]What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
Mortal enemy? lol.

[#22]What's your personality like?
I have different personalities in front of different people (: But overall, I'm a clear-minded girl.

[#23]What song will be played at your wedding?
All the love songs?

Felt bored. So did this. hahas.
Anyways, I shall move on to do my hmwk.
hahas. byee (:

Hey guys, I know you all are worried.
But, just for now, I really don't wish to answer your questions.
Like are you okay now? Or how are you feeling now?
Because, it's not overnight that I will be okay.
I hope to get all of your understanding.
So please, don't ask me. I will feel more pressurized.
Just leave me alone with all these questions.

Don't worry, I'm fine.
Even if I don't feel good,
still I know what to do at least.
I won't do anything foolish,
I know it's really stupid.

Although I will still be pissed off.
But I know how to calm down and relax myself.

Thanks for all of your concern...

Hi! (: Feeling better now.
Oh my darling I LOVE YOU!
PrawnSociety I LOVE YOU!

I'm still feeling emotionally unstable.
This moment I'm happy, the next moment I'm sad.
This moment I speak to you calmly, the next moment I flare.
This moment I'm crazy, the next moment my eyes starts to water.
LOL! I love my PrawnSociety! They make my day! (:

Prawn society! prawn prawn society! :D

Thanks people who cheered me up (:
Although I'm still emotionally unstable. (:

They are not just boys.
I'm not bothered by how mischievous or naughty they are.
They are my friends, not just boys, my friends.
It's not ONLY the way they speak to me which hurt me.
It's their actions that hurts too.
'Take this as a challenge, it's the first step to be a better leader.'
Of course I can overcome it if other boys do that to me.
Because I don't care if I offend them, I don't care if I've hurt them.
But, they are my friends, how do you expect me to offend them?
How can I possibly bear to hurt them?
My problem now is not, how to be a better leader,
but it is, how to be a better friend?

It's not the time for people to tell me what to do,
I just need encouragement and support from my friends.
Just for the time being, I need the encouragement and support.
When I'm feeling better, maybe you all can teach me what to do.

And I'm sorry if I offended anyone in my process of emo-ing.
Because me myself, cannot help myself.
As in, sorry to some people, when you all have trouble you come to me.
But I have troubles myself too, so i can't really help you.
I have to solve my own first, before i help you.
I just need some time alone to sort out my thoughts.

May i ask, is counselling anything wrong?

Everyone is stressed up and have manymany problems.
Don't think you are the only "unlucky"one.
Try to think of others too.
They may be 100times busier than you.
If it's your own responsibility, do it.

You all just like to take advantage from me.

Tell me if you all really treat me as friends.

When you need me, you ask me for help.

When you don't need help, you say byebye.

What's the meaning of this?

I treated you as my good friend.

But you just hurt me again and again.

Forget it, I give up.

It's up to you all if you wanna give up on me.

Because I cannot take it anymore.

I don't wanna turn insane.

It will just spoil my future.

I need time. Give me some time.

Give me some time to cool down and think it over.

I'm just behaving so zi bi to some boys.

I feel damn uneasy and uncomfortable when they talk to me.

I just can't raise my head, I'm just feeling so afraid.

I don't like class. I don't wanna stay in class.

I'm scared. )))))))))))))))))':

I feel depressed, sad, angry, emotional, all the negative feelings.

I really don't want to go through all this anymore.

Give me a break. I'm really scared.

Just stay away from me.

STAY AWAY FROM ME!

I'm just very tired.

And thank you monalisa, you asked if I was okay.

I was really surprised, i never imagined you would do that.

Thank you, at least you gave me an assurance that you're still my friend.

[[I know it's fun, but don't overdo it please]]

I can only say, I feel so depressed nowadays.
I dunno if I too, is being over paranoid.
But I've had enough! ENOUGH!

It's okay if you all like to pick on me and bully me.
I'm totally fine with it. I like it.
BUT THERE IS A LIMIT. I REPEAT.
THERE IS A LIMIT TO EVERYTHING!
Please do not overdo it.
I'm also human, I'm a girl.
I have feelings and emotions too.
I may be crazy at times, but I can be serious too.
Don't see me as the crazy Jasmin.
Because I can be serious. I can be serious!

WHEN I AM CRAZY, YOU ALL SAY IT'S ME.
WHEN I AM NOT CRAZY, YOU ALL SAY I GIVE ATTITUDE.
WHAT IS THIS! WHAT IS THIS! EXPLAIN TO ME! WHAT IS THIS!
EVEN THE MOST POSITIVE PERSON WILL GET TIRED.
AND NEEDS REST. CAN I? CAN I AT LEAST HAVE SOME REST!
GIVE ME A BREAK GUYS! LEAVE ME ALONE!
TREAT ME LIKE I HAVE AUTISM!
TREAT ME LIKE I HAVE SOME CONTAGIOUS DISEASE!
YOU DON'T ASK ME WHAT HAPPEN!
I DON'T WANNA ANSWER ALL THESE QUESTIONS!
I NEED A BREAK FROM ALL THESE STRESS!
I NEED COUNSELLING! I SERIOUSLY NEED COUNSELLING!
I AUTOMATICALLY GET DEPRESSED THE MOMENT I STEP INTO CLASS!

You know why I'm so pissed off nowadays?
It's because, you told me before,
you wanna sit beside me coz you wanna work hard for exams.
I trusted you, I let you sit beside me.
I wanted to help you, But you simply wouldn't let me.
I'm really very dissapointed. I'm very sad.
You are my friend, I want you to do well.
I DON'T WANT YOU TO AH BENG AROUND!
I DON'T WANT YOU TO SKIP CLASSES!
I DON'T WANT YOU TO GET INTO TROUBLE!
WHY?! BECAUSE YOU ARE MY FRIEND!
Please! Give me a break! Treat me like a girl!
I AM A GIRL! A GIRLLLL!
I'm really feeling very depressed.
I don't know what to do.
positive? positive? fine. I'll think positive.
I won't do anything foolish.
I'm going counselling. I AM GOING COUNSELLING!
I JUST FEEL LIKE BURSTING OUT IN TEARS IN CLASS JUST NOW!
BUT THEY ARE STUDDORN! SHIT! CRAP! IDIOT!
I will get angry okay. I;m also human, I will get angry.
I SERIOUSLY FEEL MOODY NOWADAYS.
IT IS NOT AN ACT. NOT AN ACT. I REPEAT.
I FEEL MOOPDY AND DEPRESSED NOWADAYS IN CLASS,
IT IS NOT AN ACT, IT IS FOR REAL!

I'M JUST VERY ANGRY NOW!

It's impossible for us to find perfect friends.
It's really hard to find friends who truly understand us.
We just have to accept the way our friends are,
and find ways to improve the friendship.

It just pains me to see my friends when they're having problems.
It's not a burden to me,
I'm glad when I get to lessen the burden on their shoulders.
Both are eqully important to me.

Catherine had heart failure since young.
She have a best friend, Rachel. Rachel is an orphan.
One day, they quarrelled because of some misunderstandings.
Catherine's health was also deteriorating,
so she didn't want to bother about this matter first.
She wished to recuperate so she left this matter aside.
Despite the awkwardness they had when they see each other,
Rachel still wished the best for her,
and tried to avoid her in case she agitates Catherine.

As weeks passed,Catherine's health got from bad to worse.
Eventually, she needed a heart transplant to survive.

Lucky for Catherine, she found a donor.
After the operation, she regained conscious.
A nurse walked into her ward and passed her a letter,
saying it was from the donor.

It says:
``
Dear Catherine,

I guess I have already left this world when you read this letter.
This is the only way you can be sitting here alive, reading this.

You have always been my very best friend,
I lost my family ever since the day I was born.
But I never felt lost when I'm with you.
You were like the light which guides me through the darkness.
You were always there for me.

I really regretted quarrelling with you over this minor issue.
I should have understood that,no one is perfect,
and I cannot expect you to understand me inside out.
I should have realised, although you did not understand me enough,
You were always the one there for me.

Ever since that day when we stop communicating,
I felt so empty and alone,
as if I was the only one on Earth.
But there's something inside me which says,
I live for Catherine.
You were the one who pushed me to live on.
Despite your illness, I was so motivated by your will of living on.

I'm really sorry.
This is all I can do for you.
Giving you my heart, is worth it.
I am a part of your life now,
use my heart and live your life to the fullest.
Don't feel guilty and sad over my dissapearance
because I am now living in your heart.

I love you my friend.

Love,
Rachel
``

Catherine's tears flowed.

Treasure your friends.
I regret treating some people badly in the past.

I love my friends.

Stories above should be credited to
Dumb ass and Fat ass.

Thank you.

[[Cherish them before you regret]]