Haha (: Things are going well for me? (:
Haha, whether it's good or bad,
i'll still have my positive attitude on.

YingChong,Rosamund,Cherubim,ChinMing,LinSen,Xinyi
at hangzhou le. Hope they're fine down there. hahas.

I wanna 'renovate' my room leh.
So small so squeesy.
But surely need to spend a lot of money.
And stupid Jamie sharing room with me. ZZZ!

accept the things I cannot change,
have courage to change the things I can and
have the wisdom to know the difference

my posts are random xD

Was playing around with youtube and found this :D





People going to hangzhou!
must take care!

and i'm a fan of connie talbot
please watch the video





((:

I wanna get good grades =D

I seriously don't know what i've done wrong.
now it seems like it's all my fault?
it's just that simple incident
whereby i didn't turn up for the outing?
and now you're giving me the cold shoulders
when i don't even know what i;ve done wrong?
did u say we left u all alone there,
having to hear complains from THEM about US?
before.

did u know what we've done for u?
people DO bad-mouth about you,
but we speaked up for u and tried to clear the misunderstanding they haf about u.

u say u haf other problems to think about and solve.
so u didn't want to solve the problem between us.
i understand.
so i shall leave this matter aside too.

but i can't stand the way u treat me.
this moment you smile at me, the other moment u frown at me.
u will leave me to be seriously confused.
and i hope, even if you're unhappy with me.
please do not bring it into the class.

[[jasmin is fckedup]]

It's been a long time since I meet up with my old pals.
How I hope we could at least find a day,
to sit down and have a meal,
chatting about our lives.

I really missed you guys.

I missed too much, I don't even know what's going on in your lives.

Indeed, we've drifted apart?
Like that's not what we've promised each other back then.

When the whole world has given up hope on you, don't give up on yourself.
But if you give up on yourself, no one else could help you stand up,
except yourself.

It's the usual life with ups and especially with alot of downs.
hahas, but life goes on (:
i can only try my best to overcome them.
Friendship problems. Family problems. School work stress
It's only how i deal with them.
I believe many people my age are going through what i'm going through now (:
but must think positively! :D
If we have the will, we will! ((:

Anyway, shall blog about my life. hahas.
ROAR IT OUT is over (:
And many thanks to Jerrick for helping me (:
I sometimes feel, zzz.
I don't know why, i suddenly dunno how to express myself in words.
ARGH!

nvmnvm. byebye.

When one is in his darkest moments of his life,
the one he needs most is his family and friends.
especially his parents,parents are the children's source of motivation.

But i just can't get the support from my parents.
i've been learning to face the harsh reality of this world,
ever since young, for my whole life,
i only heard 5% of his encouragements,
the rest were... just words to doubt my capabilities.
Maybe i should thank him? For being, harsh on me?
All your negative words affected my whole life,positively, and negatively.
Why do you look down on your children?
Is it because you look down on yourself?
That's why you have to look down on your children too?
You say i never learn anything about life,
i dunno how to be a person. I'm not good.
i'm not generous, not honest, not responsible,
very selfish? do things without sparing a thought for others?
and all the moral values. which you think i don't have?
Nobody is perfect, but you are sososo wrong to say that,
i dunno anything about life... D':
do you really know? Do you really know what you're talking about?
But frankly speaking, you never communicate with me.
Not at all, i never hear 大道理s from you...
You never taught me. You never let me spread my wings and fly?
Maybe you did, but u did it unwillingly.
Making me not have a sense of security and assurance from you.
Always letting me hesitate before i do anything.
So as not to get things wrong, and have you demoralising on me.
not giving me any encouragement, support, motivation or confidence.

Everyday i come home, i can only feel one thing.
stress.
i bring ALL my troubles home.
hoping i could spend some time to think things over, but i realised.
It would be rubbing on to my wound.I already have a wound at home.
WHY THE HELL AM I SO STUPID TO BRING OTHER PROBLEMS BACK THERE?!
hahaha! HAHAHA! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! CRAZY ME! I'M CRAZY LA!

i still love winter sonata

Sorry people, I've been very busy with stuffs.
Especially, i apologise to my friends.
Haven't been able to reply your tags and hear your problems lately.
Neglecting you people.

Sometimes i'm really afraid,
because i've no time for my friends.
Especially primary school friends.
I tend to neglect them.
I always tell my friends,
when you're leaving,
even if it's on the phone, msn or face to face.
You must say byebye.
Bidding farewell is very impoertant.

If one day,(EXAMPLE ONLY) i was talking to cherubim on msn.
Then she just left without a word, without saying byebye.
The next day i met with car accident on the way to school.
Do you get it?
You never even have the chance to say byebye to that person.

Too tired to explain clearly la.
Anyway, hope you all can understand. hahas.

Xiaobao, I'm sorry.
I'll reply to you asap if i can meet up with you.
And deying, bear with me for a while longer.
Like I said, send me a mail if u really have problems.
I'll try to reply asap.


I've been bullied ):
First, beginning of the year.
It was my expensive badminton racket.
The frame broke and I dunno who's the culprit.
No one admit their fault,
so i just let the matter rest.
And now, it's my waterbottle.
Someone took a pen knife and cut my waterbottle.
As in make deep scratches ):
That's not mine lehh... i'll be blamed.
Again, no one admit. then i cannot do anything also.
i really very stressed up.
what do you call this? it's obviously being bullied.
i dunno what to do ):
all the disadvantages fall on me.
I'm just feeling so stressed,
it's not because my things spoil or what,then i unhappy.
it's because of the feeling of being bullied.

I guess people who dun try to be more understanding,
aren't consider my friends at all.
I jsut said, sorry i'm busy, we talk tomorrow.
then all the blamings start coming in.
can't you all just understand me?
I have my own things to do leh. hais.
dunno what to say la.
i dunno how to talk already.

I'm not afraid of being stressed up by schoolwork or whatever work.
But I'm not willing to be stressed over friendship or family matters.
Like for what la? work is dead, people is alive.
since we're alive, why can't we be more understanding towards each other?
and live happily together?
and don't start pointing fingers
and digging out answers and explanations.
it's really very disheartening ):

and cherubim, take care of yourself.
don't tire yourself too much.
forget about hmwk first.
concentrate on what you doing,
and catch up later on ok? jyjy

Huimin and Rosamund!
JY for ROAR IT OUT! (:

Yay, i'm here to update (:
Seriously speaking, the test(post below), that web is acccurrratttee lorr.
hahas (: when you're bored.
go do it. HAHA!

Okay fine. I have something to blog about today.
It's relationship matters.
I feel that now, we as students,
don't have to feel pressurised because...
OOO! My friends have a boyfriend,
I have to go get one too.
This is peer pressure, and end up,
what would happen? I don't know you go think yourself.
Coz today, a friend of mine, said somethings regarding this issue.
She say it's not a bad thing.
And if i don't try, i'll never grow.

But I feel that, i don't wanna get involve in a relationship for now.
Coz I prefer to be a 24h friend and student (:
rather than being a 24h girlfriend.
I'll only commit to a relationship when I grow older.
It's not that, you don't date, doesn't mean you won't grow.
I may be growing in other areas of life,
just lagging behind for this particular area.
I can catch up when I grow older.
But why should i COMMIT myself to one more thing,
when already i'm commited to so many things in school? HAHA!
Then wouldn't I be very busy? lol.
And I would just let the other party suffer.
Maybe I shall just observe the many relationships my friends have,
then I'll learn from their experience,
although self-experience is much better.
Seriously speaking, im just afraid to take a step forward for BGR.
hahas. but so? i'm not ready to be commited in a relationship anyway.
maybe my courage would increase when i grow older right? hahas. dunno.
but i just duwanna be troubled over relationship matters coz that's not my priority.

Anyway, thanks darling rose! (:
You waited for me until band end (: hahas.
And I had a great time with you,
and that guy friend who sings OH SO GREAT-ly!
oh gosh! seriously, he can go join project superstar,
or he can go taiwan, or or or,
he could go america to search for a music career!
For goodness sake!
Rosamund! Can you please please please ask him to record his voice!
and send to me pleeeeease! wahahaha!

And thanks Cherubim (:
For yesterday (:
ILOVEYOU.